passgae of night

a passage leads to the place
sorrow and despair are the companions of choice
a tunnel of the night
before we find the light

a long awaited trial
a growth long foreseen
the day that grows ever brighter
as we close those heavenly seems

the night will try its hardest
to keep us in its grasp
the light is ever blinding
we pray that the pain won’t last

the pain is part of the day
it is brought on by the night
the way of a broken heart
will draw the bond more tight

the way was is closed
the passage is shut
the path is more than we can handle
we must wait until the night is done

in the day we will see the truth
when we aren’t blinded by the cloud of tonight

Unavoidable

how long did it last
we prolonged the death
a death that was needed
a life may spring forth

the hated choice
loved by few
needed for all
never seemed so sweet

where will it lead
no one knows
but i will find the end
if you are there that will make it worth it

if if you are not there then it is better this way
either way this death
this death of self
has life in it

the death has happened
life may come
grasp what you have got and hold firmly on
never let go

the fall is worse then everything else
hold on to what is left
never look back and regret
a death that may be killing all we know

a death that is all we need
a life come to us
we may suffocate
then there will no longer be us

there will be you
i will be there
you will be here
life will go on

and pray that it has not been ruined
we must live tomorrow
and forget that yesterday was easier
this is best

it is not over it may be done
but life is best this way
in the end no matter what happens
we will be better for it

don't let it end unless it must

conflict within

what is this emotion
why has it come
what is it about
how long will it stay

what do you want
what are you looking for
where will you lodge
my heart is heavy enough


i want nothing you have
i need something you can't give
i have always been here
unknown under it all


you say you have been here all along
you say i can't give you what you seek
then why didn't i know you
and why are with me


you knew me all along
you didn't know where i came from
i've been here since before you knew me
i'm looking for something more then you


what is more then me
how could i know you and yet you be unknown
the weight in my heart is bad enough
can't you leave me alone


i'm here and you knew how i affected you
you feel the emptiness of my weight
you say there is no more room for me
i am the room in here


you are the room
you are the depth of my soul
you are the weight
you are my curse


must i live with you forever


you were born with me
you might die with me
you lift my weight for a brief moment
but i come back heavier and stronger

who are you

i am the only thing you can't get rid of by yourself

The Waiting Void

the cold depth
the ache of a thousand cries
the silencing shudder
the stillness that burns

the strength that is lost
the void that is found
the fire that freezes your heart
till it feels like its going to burst

insanity looms around the corner
reality is lost on deaf ears
the last thread
slowly dragged across the knife

the simplicity is alarming
the subtleness is captivating
the beauty is revolting
while no one watches through the open glass

The Ending Masquerade

cut yourself with the hard truth
hang yourself from your own lies
suffocate yourself with your own pride
and reassure yourself all will be fine when day breaks

reality no longer needs to be faced by you
the life you disguise
and hide with the pretty face that tells the lies

you hate that which you can't explain
your death is slow
it no longer hides the pain
you can't explain what you hate

Lost Innocence

i didn't realize where this was heading till it was too late
what is done isn't gone
the light in your eyes
they leave me terrified

what can be done
what has been done
the day is closing fast

i wish things were the way they used to be
the innocence is gone
when will we face the truth
you and i
the light no longer bright
darkness so much closer

what have i done
what have i wished to do
its too late

life, fleeting
no longer has a purpose
we must live for that reason
this attempt at existence is more then we can take

we must act
we act as we must
nothing can be done

we have lost the ignorance
what is knowledge
the door of life has killed us both
no longer is there a reason for us to pretend